[I was out of town and then came down with a nasty head cold . . . thus, my absence this past week.]
Today’s reading from Amy Carmichael’s Whispers of Power:
Mt 11.6 And blessed is he, who shall not be offended in Me.
All of us are sometimes troubled by questions. Why is the secret of healing not opened more fully? Why is that key not put into wise and loving hands? Why does He whose touch has not lost its ancient power not come immediately and touch and heal? Why have the wicked such awful power? Why are we ourselves sometimes like the little ship on the sea of Galilee beaten by the winds? And even after we have heard our dear Lord’s Peace, be still, why is it that there is not always instantly a great calm, a lasting calm? Why do the winds return again?
We could go on forever, piling question on question. Why? Why? Why?
But faith is not “trusting God when we understand His ways”–there is no need for faith then. Faith is trusting when nothing is explained. Faith rests under the Unexplained. Faith enters into the deep places of our Lord’s words. And blessed is he, who shall not be offended in Me. Faith, having entered into those deep places, stays there in peace.
Witnesses to Hope 
Sorry you are were ill. Praying that you come to full recovery soon!
This is truly a reflection of faith, being in the deep, dark places, in the unknowing, with the Lord. Trusting the Lord is a constant struggle when the whys seem unanswered, yet, I know his why is not necessary for me to know. Yet, the peace does not always stay. True faith is living and moving in and out of the why place while trusting that the answer is his greatest love. It is knowing that he is the one who is and I am the one who is not. It is a purifying place and even that is his love as he sends me circumstances that constantly draw me to him seeking his peace, my refuge in the storm.