Lenten Grace – Great Gaps

Hope to the hopeless . . .

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Where God tears great gaps we should not try to fill them with human words.
They should remain open.
Our only comfort is the God of the resurrection,
the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,
who also was and is his God.

~Dietrich Bonhoeffer from “Circular Letters in the Church Struggle”

No greater gap was torn
than when Christ was separated from the Father,
forsaken,
choosing suffering for his brothers and sisters
by paying with his life a ransom we could never satisfy,
so dead broke are we
and captive to our sin.

Only the Word can fill
what remains open and gaping,
until we accept the comfort of his grace
freely given.

Grace great enough
to fill every hole
bridge every gap
bring hope to the hopeless
and restore us wholly to our Father
who was and is our God.

 

 

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The powerless

Laura died this past Saturday.  I never really spent much time with her, but many of the women I live with did.  Laura had been one of the first residents of one of our Emmanuel Houses and had been lovingly teaching all who volunteered there for the past fourteen years.  Laura had lived with cerebral palsy in an institution until she was “rescued” by a priest who, along with others who befriended her, helped her to eventually live independently and get a college degree . . . by pecking out papers on a typewriter one key at a time, one hand stabilizing the other.  Eventually Laura had a stroke and was no longer able to live on her own and became a gift to those who serve at Emmanuel House.  It was very hard to understand Laura’s speech, but she spoke volumes nonetheless.  Trapped in her body, she still shone forth.  I can’t tell you how many times I heard the women I live with speak of how much they were learning from Laura.

I mentioned a couple of days ago that I am re-reading a book by Christopher de Vinck, The Power of the Powerlessness.  He tells a similar story about his brother, Oliver.  The main reason I mention all of this right now is not just for the sake of underlining the dignity of all those in such powerless situations, but also to remind each of us of our own dignity when we confront our own powerlessness, when we feel trapped in ourselves.   Laura had the ability to make a daily choice about how to respond to hers.  May we do the same and shine forth as she did.  Lent is a time for doing just that.

Laura Newell
Laura Newell

We all clap

Your bathrobe tie dropped into the toilet, the computer is taking forEVer, the telephone is ringing again, and you still don’t know what you’re making for dinner tonight. . . . and it’s only the beginning of Lent!  Read Christopher deVinck’s story below to remind you of a very, very important principle:

One spring afternoon my five-year-old son, David, and I were planting raspberry bushes along the side of the garage.  He liked to bring the hose and spray the freshly covered roots and drooping leaves.

A neighbor joined us for a few moments and there we stood, my son David, the neighbor and I. We probably discussed how much water a raspberry plant could possibly endure when David placed the hose down and pointed to the ground.  “Look, Daddy!”

If a wasp enters the house, I show my three children, David, Karen and Michael, how I catch the insect with a glass and a piece of thick paper.  I wait for the wasp to stop its frantic thumping and buzzing against the windowpane, then I place the open drinking glass over the creature and trap it.  Then, without pinching the wasp, I slowly slide the thick paper under the glass, and there I have it.

I invite the children to take a close look.  They like to see the wasp’s think wings; then all four of us leave the house through the front door for the release.

The children, standing back a little, like to watch as I remove the paper from the top of the glass.  They like to watch the rescued wasp slowly walk to the rim of the glass, extend its wings, and fly off into the garden.  We all clap, David, Karen, Michael and I.

When David was two he climbed the top of the small blue slide one afternoon in our backyard, and just before he zoomed down, he saw a few ants crawling around on the smooth metal.  “Daddy! Ants!”

We stopped and crouched down to see if we could count how many legs ants have (six); then I gently brushed the ants off the slide and David shot down with glee.

I choose to watch the wasp and count the legs of an ant.

“Look, Daddy!  What’s that?” I stopped talking with my neighbor and looked down.

“A beetle,” I said.

David was impressed and pleased with the discovery of this fancy, colorful creature.

My neighbor lifted his foot and stepped on the insect giving his shoe an extra twist in the dirt.

“That ought to do it,” he laughed.

David looked up at me, waiting for an explanation, a reason.  I did not wish to embarrass my neighbor, but then David turned, picked up the hose and continued spraying the raspberries.

That night, just before I turned off the lights in his bedroom, David whispered, “I liked that beetle, Daddy.”

“I did too,” I whispered back.

We have the power to choose.

Next time the computer freezes, your bathrobe tie falls in the toilet, and the phone rings again, remember you have the power to choose how to respond.  And maybe, just maybe, you could also choose to clap.  Let’s pray for each other this Lent.

P.S. If you’ve never read Chris deVinck’s The Power of the Powerless, from which this excerpt was drawn, do so.  You won’t regret it.

Where is Christ today?

[A repost from the past]

This is the day when everything is silent.  We can go about the day not giving much of a thought to it–just seeing it as the day between Good Friday and Easter Sunday. Yet monumental things were happening in the spiritual realm.  Christ descended to hell to set captives free.

This still has meaning for us.  So often we think nothing is happening in our own spiritual lives, yet God is about monumental things.  Have hope in the Unseen.

Christ descended into “Hell” and is therefore close to those cast into it, transforming their darkness into light.  Suffering and torment is still terrible and well-nigh unbearable.  Yet the star of hope has risen–the anchor of the heart reaches the very throne of God.  Instead of evil becoming unleashed within man, the light shines victorious: suffering–without ceasing to be suffering–becomes, despite everything, a hymn of praise. (Pope Benedict XVI, Spe Salvi)

And for those of you who feel that you are living “in darkness and in the shadow of death”, take heart, for you are exactly who he desires to visit.  From an ancient homily on Holy Saturday:

Greatly desiring to visit those who live in darkness and in the shadow of death, he has gone to free from sorrow the captives . . .

How can we ever comfort Him?

Today we remember the depths of Christ’s love for us.  But how can we ever love Him in return, how can we comfort Him in His suffering?  His suffering is too huge and our love is so small.  As I was pondering that question last night, the Holy Spirit called to mind something I read a year or too ago about this.  The author advised that we be like little children who try to comfort a suffering parent.  About all we can do as a child is hold our parent’s hand or kiss him or her.  Yet that provides great comfort for the parent.  All Christ asks of us is to be with Him today in His suffering, to hold His hand or kiss His feet, each in our own way.

This all reminds me of a painting by Giotto of Christ’s descent from the cross.  In it we see the women caressing Christ’s body: Mary, His dear Mother, and the women who followed Him.  Giotto places a figure square in the middle of the painting with its back to us.  He does that to prompt us to think about where we would be in the picture.  Take his prompting and let yourself enter into this mystery and hold Him and kiss Him today.

“Return to the most sorrowful woman the body, even if only lifeless, so that, although so diminished the crucified man may grow with kisses, with embraces.”

But if we find grace

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Judas, Peter

because we are all
betrayers, taking
silver and eating
body and blood and asking
(guilty) is it I and hearing
him say yes
it would be simple for us all
to rush out
and hang ourselves
but if we find grace
to weep and wait
after the voice of morning
has crowed in our ears
clearly enough
to break our hearts
he will be there
to ask us each again
do you love me

Luci Shaw

Loving with Mary

This morning as I woke up, I began thinking again about contemplating our Lord’s Passion with Mary.  I was immediately struck by the thought of how much of her time and love was spent through these difficult days in loving those that Christ loved.  Peter would surely have flown to her after his denial.  How lost John must have felt after his flight in the garden.  Mary Magdalen and Mary and Martha (and Lazarus) of Bethany would have faced their own devastation.  There was the bitter anger at Judas that pervaded them all.  And so on with all of them. But just as Jesus gave her to us through John at the Cross, so He would have been urging her in the same way (by His Spirit) to go out to those He loved so much.

Perhaps your Triduum will be filled with the demands of others and you would rather be focusing more “directly” upon our Lord.  Perhaps it is His Spirit urging you to go where His Mother is going.  In following her and loving whomever she is loving, you will in fact be loving our Lord who loves them more than you do.

Contemplating with Mary

There were two options for the Opening Prayer for Mass last Thursday–something I hadn’t seen yet in the new missal.  Our priest chose the second option, and I will be forever grateful.  The prayer reads:

O God, who in this season give your Church the grace to imitate devoutly the Blessed Virgin Mary in contemplating the passion of Christ, grant, we pray, through her intercession, that we may cling more firmly each day to your Only Begotten Son and come at last to the fullness of his grace.  Who lives and reigns with you in the unity of the Holy Spirit, one God for ever and ever.  Amen.

I was caught by the beginning: “to imitate devoutly the Blessed Virgin Mary in contemplating the passion of Christ.”  My whole prayer became one of asking Mary to help me walk through this Holy Week close to her, perceiving her Son with her eyes and loving Him with her heart.   This, of course, can totally change one’s experience of the Passion.  Wouldn’t Mary have walked in great faith though in great darkness?  Wouldn’t she have strengthened her Son as much as she could?  Would she not have stood at the Cross in adoration, willing that He would draw from her everything that could encourage Him in doing His Father’s will completely?

May we each learn greatly from her this week.

Entering Holy Week

Entering Holy Week

by Catherine Doherty.

This is the hour of faith. We are going to need faith, because Holy Week, in a manner of speaking, will show us the reign of the prince of darkness, who rejoiced on Good Friday because he killed God, or so he thought.

One picture has haunted me throughout the years. It is Christ hanging on the cross while many who have benefited by his goodness—the halt, the lame, and the blind—are saying to him, “If you are who you say you are, come down from that cross and we shall believe you.”

How many miracles have happened to us, individually?

This is the week for meditating on how much we are loved. If there is anyone who thinks that he or she is not loved, let him follow the Holy Week liturgies, and he will know with what love we are all loved.

For those of us who do know a little of that love, let this week be a week of loving others, for no one can receive the infinite love of God without passing it on. God meant it to be that way. If we kept it for ourselves, it would break us.

It seems that each of us is always to have empty hands—to have our sinner’s heart with all its hostility, pain, and sin—yet a heart that is always turned to God. He who loves sinners has to come into our hearts again and again and constantly give us the mercy of his love.

Let us acknowledge this and let us share this love, emptying it onto the other, whoever he might be. It is immaterial who, for when one is loved by God, one loves everybody, because God lets the rain fall on the just and the unjust.

God’s love pouring into us is poured out to the other, and then another Niagara of his love comes in. It never stops.

When I think I have nothing to give, lo and behold, the cascade of God’s love passes through me and I am renewed. I can give again, because God became man, dispossessing himself.

When you fall in love with God, the desire for dispossession becomes like a fire in your heart, because when one falls in love, one wants to identify with the beloved. It has always been thus and still is.

The Gift of Tears

Russians say that this is the week of the gift of tears. We believe that there is a gift of tears that comes from the Holy Spirit. We say that it washes away our sins and the sins of mankind. Silence and tears and a contrite heart God will not reject.

This is the week of confession and also the week of overcoming sins, because it is one week in the year when we know that, while we can’t overcome our sins, Christ can.

As one of our MH priests has said, “During most of this holy season of Lent, you have to work at living Lent, but then comes the time when you no longer have to carry Lent. The liturgy is so strong, so powerful, that it just carries you. The strength and power at work in the Church carries us all through Holy Week.”

When you think of this holy week, it’s like a shiver passing through you. It is the mercy of God and his love for you. And because you are caught up in it, held by it, immersed in it, your soul opens up and you cease to be afraid. The God-man has erased your fear.

In this Holy Week, let us join hands in deep forgiveness of one another. Let us reconcile ourselves to whomever we are not reconciled. Let us each enlarge the circle of love in our hearts so that it can encompass the humanity that flows near us. Such is the love of God: mercy flows from it. Forgiveness is part of it. Humility sings a song to it. This truly is a week that is holy!

Let all of this sink into you, for God is with us every moment. He is present right now. Let his love, his simplicity, his ordinariness, and his extraordinariness—all of him—enter your heart, and then you will know why this week is called holy.

— Adapted from Season of Mercy, pp. 79-81, available from MH Publications.